I had a bad day today.
Ione was here and she is teething. She would have preferred her mama and her mama’s breasts to comfort her, not her auntie and a bottle of breastmilk. Olivia woke up a bit grumpy. Levi is still very stuffed up and needed a lot of mama love today.
None of those things made me have a bad day. Those things just were. I chose to react in a not so nice way and I really wish I hadn’t.
I ended up going outside and sitting alone on the back porch for a few minutes and just crying. It helped a bit. Then I ran to the store for eggplant alone and splurged on a candy bar. I took a little drive on the way home while listening to my mad music (Korn) really loud and just breathing. My whole outlook shifted back to our normal. I have been in a much better place since.
Ione is still teething and still wants her mama. Olivia is still a bit grumpy. Levi is still not feeling well and wants mama love. But I am not choosing to be an upset mama now. I know that their feelings are theirs, not mine. I just needed a reminder.
Do-over Monday is now in effect. We’re all hanging out on the couch- the girls are playing on art.com and Levi is getting his hugs and kisses in between watching Spongebob. It’s all as it should be now.
